I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I have had it for about 12 years now. Acne, significant weight gain, hair loss, hair growth in weird places, fatigue - doesn't it sound fun? Not only do I deal with these symptoms, I have cysts that grow on the outside of my ovaries.
Cysts are actually my eggs that have deformed and grown outside the walls of my ovary. So not only am I losing eggs monthly due to nature, I am losing them at an alarming rate due to this disease. Once I had one the size of a baseball on my left side. It was pretty painful at times. The body will either reabsorb the cysts, or they will burst. The latter is so painful and is a whole other topic.
PCOS is a disease of the Endocrine system and not something you can catch or really do anything about. The only thing at this time is to deal with the symptoms. Right now, the only thing that is a bother is my weight. I am sure most of you right now are thinking, don't eat a lot and work out! Well, yes and no. Due to PCOS, not only is gaining weight easier than catching a cold, it is "10 times more difficult to lose weight than an average woman" - Dr. Taylor at Yale Medical.
He meant it! I would work out 45 minutes 4-5 times a week and still either stay the same weight or gain more. Fast forward to today. This summer I started going to a nutritionist because I asked my regular doctor if I could take a diet pill. So, I sat down with her and went over my typical meals and such, told her about my history and frustration. She put me on a pill that would increase my non-existent metabolism.
That was July 31st. According to the doctors scale, in 6 weeks, I lost 19 pounds. She said I would not see that kind of progress the second 6 weeks and to start working out; especially some toning exercises. The doc was right. It all came to a halt. Three weeks ago I started working out on a regular basis. I am doing strength training and some cardio and in 5 weeks, still eating small meals equalling 1500 calories a day, taking this pill and working out, I have only lost 4 pounds. To make it even better, in the last 3, I haven't dropped anything. I go back on Friday and I feel like a failure.
My clothes don't fit any different. I can't tell a difference at all since I started this whole thing. It is so frustrating, it makes me not want to eat at all. But, I can't do that because then my body goes into starvation mode and will hold onto all the stored up fat. I need encouragement. I need someone to be my cheerleader.
Maybe new recipes or snack ideas for 100 calories would be support? I am getting bored with what I have.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
iPhone is My Phone
(Internal groan) I upgraded my phone to an iPhone. I think I may have been persuaded by advertising. Not by TV or internet, but by the people I work with. Four of the 6 directors I work with have the iPhone.
I have to say, I was jealous. I wanted to be able to whip my phone out and find an ATM, get directions, find out who the really tan man is on TV when I can't think of his name when I am trying to tell a story. I wanted the status of having one, not to mention the fact that my best friend has one and due to her work policy, she can't share photos with anyone outside of iPhones and I REALLY want photo updates of my nephew.
It came in a pretty little white box with pretty little white ear buds and phone charger. Directions....not so much. This is more of a learn by doing process. Dear Apple, I don't need directions on how to turn the phone on and off or directions on where all the ports are on the phone. I have eyes (cue 1-800-Contacts I-have-special-eyes commercial), I can see where everything goes. Just like on every other phone, the plus and minus mean volume.
What I would have liked is directions on how to turn the pass code feature on. Or, how to set up wi-fi so I don't have to turn it on every time my phone goes to sleep. What would be awesome would be telling me how to not clutter up my home screen by creating folders. All of the afore mentioned things I found out by Googling.
Yeeeesssss, that's right. Google. The guys you are in a nasty, ugly battle with over maps and other applications that you feel should be your own. I had to learn from either my co workers, on my own (which is frustrating because I feel as though I need to learn a new computer "language") or the internet. And that does not always give the correct instructions.
So, I think I have learned my lesson. It might be popular, but it wasn't the right decision. I only wanted the phone for stature. Not because it would make my life better. So, in 2 years, when I am up for renewal again, if I don't need the upgrade, I will not get it. I will do what is best for me, not what it makes me look like.
I have to say, I was jealous. I wanted to be able to whip my phone out and find an ATM, get directions, find out who the really tan man is on TV when I can't think of his name when I am trying to tell a story. I wanted the status of having one, not to mention the fact that my best friend has one and due to her work policy, she can't share photos with anyone outside of iPhones and I REALLY want photo updates of my nephew.
It came in a pretty little white box with pretty little white ear buds and phone charger. Directions....not so much. This is more of a learn by doing process. Dear Apple, I don't need directions on how to turn the phone on and off or directions on where all the ports are on the phone. I have eyes (cue 1-800-Contacts I-have-special-eyes commercial), I can see where everything goes. Just like on every other phone, the plus and minus mean volume.
What I would have liked is directions on how to turn the pass code feature on. Or, how to set up wi-fi so I don't have to turn it on every time my phone goes to sleep. What would be awesome would be telling me how to not clutter up my home screen by creating folders. All of the afore mentioned things I found out by Googling.
Yeeeesssss, that's right. Google. The guys you are in a nasty, ugly battle with over maps and other applications that you feel should be your own. I had to learn from either my co workers, on my own (which is frustrating because I feel as though I need to learn a new computer "language") or the internet. And that does not always give the correct instructions.
So, I think I have learned my lesson. It might be popular, but it wasn't the right decision. I only wanted the phone for stature. Not because it would make my life better. So, in 2 years, when I am up for renewal again, if I don't need the upgrade, I will not get it. I will do what is best for me, not what it makes me look like.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Separation of Church and State?
I do not believe it matters what party ticket you identify with. I don't believe in the two party system our fore fathers started, but that is for another day. What I am concerned about is how folks are voting.
Why do you vote? Is it because he is a Democrat and you are too, so he must be the right guy?
Proverbs 29:2 - When the righteous thrive, the people will rejoice. When the wicked rule, the people groan.
I am sure some of you are groaning now. Or did four years ago.
Did you know that God set up nations to be ruled by a righteous leader? He put a good man in place to rule over the people to help them thrive, to grow, to flourish. When a bad leader came into power, it was when the nation began to fall. The people were unhappy and after a few hundred years, the nation was destroyed. Either internally or because they were so weakend by their own turmoil they were overtaken by another nation. God made governments so they would stabilize a nation, not destroy them.
Want an example? The book of 1 Kings. This isn't a story book. It is truth. Not just "truth" as in it is the word of God (although it is), but these are kings of the Middle East. They are in history books...all history books. 1 Kings show all the rulers for hundreds of years. The further they got away from God's teachings, the worse off the kingdom became. 11 generations of kings later, Omni enters the picture. He was worse than all the other kings combined (1 Kings 16-18). Needless to say, it was bad.
So, where am I going with this? We should care about the private lives of our leaders. It is their character that matters - Proverbs 16:12. If they do not have character, they are not fit to lead us. This includes a head of household (read: husband), our pastors or political leaders. What is popular isn't always right. And, of course, what is right isn't always popular. If we are voting for people because they are popular, we aren't doing what is right.
Do your homework. We need to find out about the personal lives and values of the candidates. If they aren't following the path that God set for all of us, we are setting ourselves up for failure. And not just because we aren't getting what we want. God will break us in the future if we continue down the wrong path.
Why do you vote? Is it because he is a Democrat and you are too, so he must be the right guy?
Proverbs 29:2 - When the righteous thrive, the people will rejoice. When the wicked rule, the people groan.
I am sure some of you are groaning now. Or did four years ago.
Did you know that God set up nations to be ruled by a righteous leader? He put a good man in place to rule over the people to help them thrive, to grow, to flourish. When a bad leader came into power, it was when the nation began to fall. The people were unhappy and after a few hundred years, the nation was destroyed. Either internally or because they were so weakend by their own turmoil they were overtaken by another nation. God made governments so they would stabilize a nation, not destroy them.
Want an example? The book of 1 Kings. This isn't a story book. It is truth. Not just "truth" as in it is the word of God (although it is), but these are kings of the Middle East. They are in history books...all history books. 1 Kings show all the rulers for hundreds of years. The further they got away from God's teachings, the worse off the kingdom became. 11 generations of kings later, Omni enters the picture. He was worse than all the other kings combined (1 Kings 16-18). Needless to say, it was bad.
So, where am I going with this? We should care about the private lives of our leaders. It is their character that matters - Proverbs 16:12. If they do not have character, they are not fit to lead us. This includes a head of household (read: husband), our pastors or political leaders. What is popular isn't always right. And, of course, what is right isn't always popular. If we are voting for people because they are popular, we aren't doing what is right.
Do your homework. We need to find out about the personal lives and values of the candidates. If they aren't following the path that God set for all of us, we are setting ourselves up for failure. And not just because we aren't getting what we want. God will break us in the future if we continue down the wrong path.
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