Plateu of Epic Proportions

I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.  I have had it for about 12 years now.  Acne, significant weight gain, hair loss, hair growth in weird places, fatigue - doesn't it sound fun?  Not only do I deal with these symptoms, I have cysts that grow on the outside of my ovaries. 

Cysts are actually my eggs that have deformed and grown outside the walls of my ovary.  So not only am I losing eggs monthly due to nature, I am losing them at an alarming rate due to this disease.  Once I had one the size of a baseball on my left side.  It was pretty painful at times.  The body will either reabsorb the cysts, or they will burst.  The latter is so painful and is a whole other topic.

PCOS is a disease of the Endocrine system and not something you can catch or really do anything about.  The only thing at this time is to deal with the symptoms.  Right now, the only thing that is a bother is my weight.  I am sure most of you right now are thinking, don't eat a lot and work out!  Well, yes and no.  Due to PCOS, not only is gaining weight easier than catching a cold, it is "10 times more difficult to lose weight than an average woman" - Dr. Taylor at Yale Medical. 

He meant it!  I would work out 45 minutes 4-5 times a week and still either stay the same weight or gain more.  Fast forward to today.  This summer I started going to a nutritionist because I asked my regular doctor if I could take a diet pill.  So, I sat down with her and went over my typical meals and such, told her about my history and frustration.  She put me on a pill that would increase my non-existent metabolism.

That was July 31st.  According to the doctors scale, in 6 weeks, I lost 19 pounds.  She said I would not see that kind of progress the second 6 weeks and to start working out; especially some toning exercises.  The doc was right.  It all came to a halt.  Three weeks ago I started working out on a regular basis.  I am doing strength training and some cardio and in 5 weeks, still eating small meals equalling 1500 calories a day, taking this pill and working out, I have only lost 4 pounds.   To make it even better, in the last 3, I haven't dropped anything.  I go back on Friday and I feel like a failure.

My clothes don't fit any different.  I can't tell a difference at all since I started this whole thing.  It is so frustrating, it makes me not want to eat at all.  But, I can't do that because then my body goes into starvation mode and will hold onto all the stored up fat.  I need encouragement.  I need someone to be my cheerleader.

Maybe new recipes or snack ideas for 100 calories would be support?  I am getting bored with what I have.